Thursday, December 31, 2009

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010 PEEPS!!

SIGH~

isnt it sad to be alone on ur own on new years eve~

while others is out there gettin ready for countdown~

i m just at hm alone~

i jut wish i could~

nvm~

sigh~

anyways!! GOODBYE 2009! WELCOME 2010!!

well~ my 2010 resolutions will be~

- try to stop smokin

- lose more wt (a must!)

- keep my hair long

- earn more $$ (hahas)

- be with my dar dar as much as i can? (only if he wants to)

WELL~ thats all for now i really hope i can fulfil all my 2010 resolution~

to all u peeps out there~ i wish y'all a very very HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!

May you & your love ones be blessed with lots of love & happiness always~

Posted by BabyYaya at 11:09 PM

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Today is the day when i just lost it~

i ve lost it~

lost it all~

lost it forever~

lost it for good~

din see this comin~

but it just happen~

now i know how it feels to lost it~

i just~

Posted by BabyYaya at 10:27 PM

this mornin i reached office earlier den usual~

but once i entered my office i just throw myself on my chair~

i just stared out the window and started cryin~

for once i felt like i m cryin like a baby~

i m just worried~ i just cared~ i just love so much~

but how cme wat i do sounded so wrong~

on top of all that i knew my boss for sure gonna gv me a hard time today~

well~ i was right~

i guess i brought all this upon myself~

i blame no one but myself~

i guess i saw all this comin~

but i just took it for granted and ignored all the signs given to me~

but isnt it a lil too late now when its all been said and done??

from the moment i stepped in my office this mornin til now~

i ve been cryin~ i just cnt control myself now~

i just feel like i m havin an emotional breakdown anytime now~

YA ALLAH~ SESUNGGUH NYA~ BERIKAN LAH KEKUATAN KPD HAMBA MU INI~

YA ALLAH~ KUAT KAN LA IMAN KU DAN SEMANGAT KU INI~

YA ALLAH~ BERIKAN LA PETUNJUK MU YA ALLAH~

Posted by BabyYaya at 10:24 AM

Monday, December 28, 2009

27 DEC 2009 A DAY TO REMEMBER


THESE ARE THE QUESTIONS THAT HAS BEEN GOIN THRU MA MIND SINCE LAST NYTE:

-Are u sure this is what u really want? (200% damn sure!)

-Are we still gonna be as close as before? (we will always be~)

-Do u still think i m important to u? (u are the most impt person in ma life~)

-Do u still think i m ur 1st and ur last? (u are & always will be~)

-Do u still think i m ur no. 1? (u will always be!)

-Do u still think i m cute? (u r my BAM BAM so~ yea!)

-Do u still feel the rush when i kiss u? (i do & lovin it!)

-Do u still feel excited when u see me online? (i am all the time!)

-Do u still wanna talk to me all day/night long even though u are bz,tired,sleepy?
(i'll put aside anythin for u~)

-Will u still laugh to my jokes? (i will @ all times!)

-Will u eventually get sick & tired of me? (i NEVER will)

-Will u still be jealous if i talk to another guy? (i dare u to! i mean wif another gal!)

-Will u just ignore me when i m feelin down? (thats the last thing i'll ever do~)

-Will u just ignore me when i start to nag or talk nonsense? (no i wont!)

-Will u still be lookin forward to see me on the webcam eventhough we just met?
(i wanna see u even in my dreams)


???????? DO U STILL LOVE ME THE SAME ???????? ANSWER : I just cant imagine my life without u~


Posted by BabyYaya at 8:52 PM

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Dangerously In Love Lyrics

I love you
I love you
I love you

Baby I love you
You are my life
The happiest moments weren't complete
If you weren't by my side
You're my relation
And connection to the sun
With you next to me
There's no darkness I can't overcome
You are the raindrops
I am the sea
With you and God, who's the sunlight
I'll bloom and grow so beautifully
Baby I'm so proud
Proud to be your girl
You make the confusion
Go all away
From this cold and messed up world

I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing
Called life without you here with me
Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep lovin' me
The way I love you loving me (2x)

And I know you love me
Love me for who I am
'Cause years before I became who I am
Baby, you were my man
I know it ain't easy
Easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication
From you to me
Later on in my destiny
I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife
And I see my whole future in your eyes
The thought of all my love for you
Sometimes makes me wanna cry
Realize all my blessings
I'm grateful
To have you by my side

I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing
Called life without you here with me
Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep lovin' me
The way I love you loving me (2x)

Every time I see your face
My heart smiles
Every time it feels so good
It hurts sometimes
Created in this world
To love
To hold
To feel
To breathe
To live you

Dangerously in love

Can't do this thing, yeah
I love you, I love you
I love you
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me
Oh no
'Cause I'm in love with you, I'm in love with you
I can not do
I can not do this thing, without you in my life
Holding me, kissing me, loving me
Dangerously (dangerously)
Dangerous
Dangerously in love, with you
Oh I love you
I love you, love you
love you, love you
love you, I love you
Oh yes
I love you
I love you, love you
love you, love you
Love with you
Love you
I love you, I love you
I love you, I love you
Dangerously in love

Posted by BabyYaya at 9:46 PM


My sAT mOwNiNk BrEaKFaSt~!

i just love orange juice~!
i love the sour ones though~
and the RED MARS is just heaven~!
ouh its my first time tryin the gardenia cream roll and i guess its nice too~

Posted by BabyYaya at 9:23 AM

Friday, December 25, 2009

MeMoRabLe XmAs 2009!!

OMG!!! FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE I JUST DID THE CRAZIEST THING IN MY LIFE!!!
BUT~ it feels good to know that dar dar is happy~

lmao dar dar~ wat a memorable xmas eva!!

hehe kecoh seh~!

air ice lemon tea i 1 whole cup tumpah la seh~!!

muahahhahaha!!

but dar dar~ i love u~ i really do~

muackss

Posted by BabyYaya at 8:25 PM

MERRY XMAS PEEPS~!

SIGH~ well most of us got half day or even off day from work~
but my poor dar dar have to be on duty in camp on xmas eve~

SIGH~~
i just miss him so much ryte now~ hmm~


somehow lately i feel that alot of obstacles are comin our way~
but i guess it just made us stonger and closer to each other~
the more it makes me realise how much he loves me~
it also made me realise that i never wanna lose him~

havin said so~ always remember that this is just the beginning of our journey~
theres alot more obstacles in store for us~ and i just hope that come what may~
we'll remain strong and overcome it together~ and to give up is never~

i love you so much and just so u know~ i'll never get tired of sayin it to u~


BABY LOVE DAR DAR ALWAYS

Posted by BabyYaya at 1:12 AM

Monday, December 21, 2009

Its rainin here now~ and the more i feel i miss him~ lately for the past 3 days in a row we hv been havin bad times~ too much misunderstandins goin on~ but honestly i dun put the blame on him~ i swear i dun~ but smehow he thinks that he's been lettin me down~ i dunno how to convince him that i m really ok and that i dun put the blame on him~ coz no matter wat i say he still say thats its his fault~ SIGH

Dar dar~ if u read this~ pls know that i didnt and wont put any blames on u for the misunderstandins we had lately~

just plss~ like u dun want me too~ i dun want u to put me aside too when u r feelin down~

i just wannabe there for u~ i wannabe there to cheer u up when u r down~

i wannabe there to tell u that everythings gonna be ok~

i love u dar dar~ i really do~ dun ever doubt my love for u~

always remember the promise we made to each other aite~
we'll stand strong by each other~ and nothin can seperate us~

i'll be here waitin for u k~ if u r ready to talk to me pls call me at any time~

Posted by BabyYaya at 10:56 PM

I should have known from the start~~ i shouldnt have~~ but i just~ *sigh* nvm~ *tears*

Posted by BabyYaya at 7:28 PM

i'm scared~~

Posted by BabyYaya at 9:47 AM

Sunday, December 20, 2009

SIGH!! THIS IS MY WORSE WEEKEND EVER!!! i just miss him so much~~ y cant~ sigh~ nvm~ well sometimes people just wont really understand how u really feel~~ *tears*

Posted by BabyYaya at 12:42 PM


GOOD MORNIN SUNDAY!!! Hmm kiki baby~ u dunno how much i miss u last nyte~~ i was missin u like crazy~! hehe but how cme when i spoke to u just now u sounded unhappy~? r u mad at me or somethin?? did i do smething wrong without realising it? oh just silly me!! i hpe u'll tell me k~ oh well~ on top of all that i just want u to know that yaya love kiki and still missin kiki ALOTZ~!! OH!this pic is a request from kiki~

Posted by BabyYaya at 8:53 AM

Saturday, December 19, 2009

hmmm~~ feelin so lonely~ hahas~ i m just missin my kiki so much~ but then at the same time i m glad that he's sleepin now~ he's havin a bad flu agn today~ SIGH`~ i m suppose o wake him up at 10pm but when i called him at 9++pm he still sound sick and tired so i guess i'll just let him sleep through the night~ hopefully he'll feel much much better tomorrow~~ as for me now~ i m really missin him badly and i just dunno wat to do ~ feelin bored now~ smehow i m in the mood to watch a sad love story~ ermm mayb i'll just go watch kal ho na ho~ hahas yea bollywood freak me! but wadeva! SIGH~ kiki~ yaya miss u so much~ (T_T)

Posted by BabyYaya at 10:10 PM

LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!

Y cnt u freaks just leave me alone!!! just let me b wat i wannabe! say wat i wanna say!! eat wat i wanna eat!!! just stop pokin ur noses in my fuckin like!! so wat if u r thinner?! so watif u r better ?! that doenst gv u the fuckin right to act like u own me!!! stop giving me ur fuckin opinions all the time!!! i m not a retard deaf or dumb!! givin me ur opinion once or twice about the same thing is more than fucking enough!!! dun hv to do it everyday!!!! FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK OFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!!!

Posted by BabyYaya at 12:39 PM

Friday, December 18, 2009

OMG!!! IDK Y BUT I JUST FEEL LIKE EVERYTHIN AND EVERYONE IS JUST GETTIN ON MY NERVES TODAY!! i m just fumin with anger now!! omg!! get agitated even over the slightest things!! i feel like a freak now!!! plssss just get this anger out of me plsss!!!!!!!!!!!

Posted by BabyYaya at 12:06 PM


feelin down this mornin so i decided to treat myself to a box of dark chocs~

Posted by BabyYaya at 9:45 AM

Thursday, December 17, 2009

when boredom strikes!

OH GOD~~~! I M SO BORED!! can someone pls tell me wat i shud do now??i m just freakin bored!! why cant i just go to sleep? why is it so hard for me to fall asleep everynite?? why cant i be like normal people?? aaarghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! i m goin NUTS!!!!

Posted by BabyYaya at 10:43 PM


DOES ANYONE KNOWS WHERE I CAN GET THIS??????? YAYA WANTS IT!!!!!

Posted by BabyYaya at 7:55 AM

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

SIGH~ i just dunno wats happenin to my life right now~ it seems like probS after probS keeps comin my way~ and wat had just happen really was an eye opener to me that nothin is impossible right now~ and i m like so confuse right now~ idk who I shud trust & who i shudnt trust~ and the worst thing was that~ i even doubt the 1 and only person that is impt and close to me~ i know i shudnt hv doubted him but at that point of time my mind was just in a whirl~ i m just so sorry~ i m just hopin for the best right now~ hopin every single day that nothin will happen to US~ to whom it may concern~ plss i m beggin u to stop messin with my life~~ u n me we r over~ so just let go and move on with life~ losin me doesnt mean its the end of ur life~ i m sure theres always someone out there for u who'll be much much better than me~ u hv done enuf damage here alrdy~ so plssss~~ just stop watever u r tryin to do to ruin my life~~~ if u think that by leavin u i m being ungrateful~ den all i can say is i m sorry~ but just so u know~ I DIDNT LEFT U FOR THE REASONS THAT U THOUGHT OF~~ but watever it is~ we r over so just let it go and move on~ plsssssssssssssssss

Posted by BabyYaya at 10:14 PM

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

>> KAKA JR
>> KOKO JR (OUR FAV)
>> KUKU JR

Posted by BabyYaya at 11:36 PM

KIKI~ its not that yaya dun wanna share or hesitate~ only god knows hw badly yaya wanna share everything with kiki~ but smetimes~ when yaya see kiki happy and smilin~ yaya dun wannabe the person to wipe off that smile of ur face by tellin u my probs~ kiki tau kan yang yaya suke sangat bile see kiki smile? i m sorry if i made u feel that yaya hesitate to share things with kiki k~ but really~ thats not the case kiki~ doesnt mean yaya tak share dgn kiki means yaya dun take kiki as my most impt person in my life k~ coz u'll always be til u finally found that special one~ yaya promise k~ yaya miss kiki always~

Posted by BabyYaya at 11:36 PM

No one believes me~ No one does~

Posted by BabyYaya at 11:35 PM

OMG! somethin happen to me last night and it really freak me out!! i never thought it wud ever happen to me! all this while i've just heard stories from frens that hv experience it b4 but never have i ever thought it wud ever ever happen to me! even makes me shiver talkin bout it now! well wat happen last night was~ at about 11++pm i decided to sleep as i was alrdy sleepy(missin kiki) so ok i fell asleep without realising it~ but then~ abt less than 5mins after i fell asleep IT HAPPEN! I felt like SOMETHIN/SOMEONE only GOD knows wat it is~ attackin the upper half of my body! i was strugglin to make IT stop but IT just wont stop! i tried to scream but somehow i lost my voice! but i didnt gv up~ i kept strugglin! finally after abt 5mins or so~ i managed to recite my religion(ISLAM) holy recital and it just stop! and i straight away sit up and stared in the blank~ i can feel my body shiverin and my body was weak smehow~ i was still in shock! i dunno wat it was and where it came from~ after staring in the blank for abt 10mins~ i just grab my hp and i couldnt think of any1 else except for kiki~ so i try callin him but silly me! of coz he's alrdy asleep~ oh well~ was just tryin my luck~ but really this experience really freak me out! mayb sme of u may think that i m just makin it up but i SWEAR UPON MY OWN LIFE IT HAPPENED TO ME! i just hope that this is my first and my last time experiencing this kind of encounters! so watever u r plsssss go away and dun disturb me plssss as far as i m concerned i hvnt offend u in anyways~

Posted by BabyYaya at 11:35 PM

HI AGAIN.. hmm~ if u been readin my post lately i m sure u notice its mostly anger,sadness,suffocations etc. i myself is not sure y~ maybe i guess i m just goin thru the bad times in my life right now~ its like everythin is not right with me~ everythin i do seems wrong to me or to others~ have u gone thru wat i m goin thru right now? SIGH~ it sux right? i just dunno hw to cope with this~ any tips? anyways~ i really wanna thank kiki for always being there for me durin this time of my life when i m goin thru the bad times..toleratin my crappiness everyday~ also for nvr giving up on me~ i m so touch by your sincererity~ and the more i feel that i shudnt give up on us~ and to keep all the promises i made to u~ have faith in yaya k kiki~ i just hope that my bad times will go away~ far far away soon~ den i'll be my usual self~ always smilin and laughin~ the happy go lucky and crazy yaya~ i miss that~ miss being my old self~ hmm~ i dunno wat to do later when i m hme from work~ worried bout kiki~ somehow i feel lonely today~ coz kiki is sick~ so i asked him to have a good rest and sleep early~ today we didnt really sms or call ech other as much as we usually does~ and the funny thing today is that i keep composin text in my hp to send to kiki but then i just del it~ i m so used to like textin him or receive texts from him everyday but today it feels so quiet~ just too quiet~ just didnt wanna disturb kiki today as i know he's really sick so i want him to get as much rest as he can get~ just hopin that he'll get better tomorrow~ GOD PLS MAKE KIKI FEEL BETTER BY TOMORROW PLS~ IT JUST HURT YAYA SO MUCH TO SEE KIKI SUFFER~ PLS~

Posted by BabyYaya at 11:35 PM

gettin to know me was just a mistake~ knowin me is just a disaster~

Posted by BabyYaya at 11:35 PM

gettin to know me was just a mistake~ knowin me is just a disaster~

Posted by BabyYaya at 11:35 PM

FUCK! WTF IS WRONG WITH U FCKNG PPL?!! DID I FUCKIN OFFENDED U IN ANYWAYS?!! NO?! IF NO THEN WHY THE FUCK U SHOWIN ME UR FUCKIN ATTITUDE FOR?!! WTF U TAKE ME AS?!! A FUCKIN PIECE OF LOG WITH NO FUCKIN FEELINS?!! JUST TREAT ME AS U WISH?!! Y DONT U JUST CONFRONT ME ?! WHY ACT LIKE A FUCKIN BITCH PLAYIN ALL THIS FUCKIN CHILDISH GAMES?! HEY Y'NOE WAT?! LISTEN HERE AITE! U CAN SAY ANYTHIN BOUT ME AS U PLZ! BUT I M WAT I M AND DATS WAT U CAN NEVER BE!! SO.....YEA! AND WAT MAKES U THINK DAT I GONNA CALL U UP AND ASK U WATS WRONG WHEN U DUN EVEN GV A DAMN WHEN I DO?! YA THINK YA SO PERFECT?! HOLD DAT THOUGHT AND TAKE A GOOD LOOK AT YA SELF IN THE FUCKIN MIRROR!!! STILL THINK U R??! TAKE MY ADVICE AND KILL YA SELF!! I JUST HATE ALL OF U!!!!! NOW JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!

Posted by BabyYaya at 11:34 PM

ANNYEONGHASEYO~ hmm~ i was on mc again tdy,wasnt feelin well~ had a bad flu since the nyte b4~ i just hate gettin flu! it really makes me crappy! but talkin to kiki really makes me feel much better~ he was givin me all the concern that i really needed badly~ thanks kiki~ u knw i really have alot to say now but smehw its just so hard to put it in sentence! oh well~ haiz~ this few days i ve been missin kiki so much coz he's been so bz with ns and like it or not theres more bz days to cme for him~ guess i'll get use to it eventually? but hey~ i just hope that we'll still be as close as we r now~ hmm kiki am i like writin too much bout u? hahas i know u wont mind~ ;p OMG!!! TABITHA IS OUT OF SG IDOL!!!! ok i m like watchin it now while writin here and OMG SHES OUT!! WTF IS WRONG WITH U PPL WHO VOTED HER OUT!!! SHES LIKE GODDAMN AMAZING! SHES JUST LIKE SG BEYONCE!! AND SHE DESERVE TO BE IN OK!! AARRGHHHHHHH!!! WTF! WTF! WTF! i just dunno wat to say rite now i mean ok sezairi is good but wat the hell!! hes not as good as TABITHA!!! for heaven sake we r lookin for "SINGAPORE IDOL" OK! I REPEAT "SINGAPORE IDOL!!" NOT SINGAPORE BEST KARAOKE IDOL GODDAMN IT!!!! gosh i m just so pissed! its alryte TABITHA u r alrdy a WINNER and MY IDOL to me and i m sure to most ppl out there who r still in shock like me now~ i m sure we'll see more of u soon and i really hope that u'll do an album i cnt wait to buy them! ok enuf bout that for now~ and kiki i know that u hv alot of things that u wanna do rite now but due to ns u r unable to~ i know its not easy for u ok~ but u know in life we dun get everything we ask for or things wont always turn out as we planned it to be~ but life still need to go on~ and pls ALWAYS remember that YAYA is ALWAYS there for KIKI~ it hurst to see u sad~ and i m sorry i cant do anything bout it~ hw i wish i could make time fast forward to the day u ORD but~ SIGH~ imy always k? hmm i guess thats all for now~ NYTE2! c ya when i c ya! YAYA OUTZ! (hi ok so i m editin here after i read kiki's post 2mins ago and now is already 1205am) hey kiki i just read ur post and it really got me to tears~ i know u were feelin down just now but i didnt know it was that bad~ i shud hv known~ look i really feel that i m part of the reason why u r feelin that way!! i m feel like shyt seh now!! OMG!! i know u r gonna tell me no i m not the reason y u r feelin that way!! but hey i m no idiot? so.. yea.. hey look if its about the misunderstandin we had the past few days i m REALLY TRULY SORRY~ and i thought i ve made it clear to u that i was just jokin?? haiz~ kiki i really think u need a break ~ and i just want u to know that i tak pernah salah anggap dgn u k~ bila hri tu i ckp u ingat i ni gini gitu it was just a joke and i da ckp dgn u kan~ smlm pon same~ kan i da ckp dgn u yg i maen2 je~ SIGH i tak tau la mcm ne nak terangkan dgn u~ JUST FEEL LIKE SHYT NOW AND I M ONCE AGAIN SORRY TO EVERYONE THAT I VE HURT AND OFFENDED WITHOUT REALISING THAT I VE DO SO! GUESS I M JUST SCREWED UP RIGHT NOW! TC ALL.

Posted by BabyYaya at 11:34 PM

HEY BOB!!! PLS GO AWAY FROM MY LIFE!! GET IT DONE AND OVER WITH WILL YA!! i ve moved on and so shud u!! STOP trying to get to me in everyways thats possible! i know that all this while we hv been breakin and pathchin up but this time round i really mean it!! theres nomore turnin bck for me!! i dun want to even know anythin bout u anymore! i just hope that u'll get sme1 that cAN really stand and tolerate ur shyts! coz i ve had enough! u r nvr gonna change! so yea~ just LEAVE ME ALONE!! i know i shudnt hve resorted to this way to make u get "THE PICTURE" but u push me to!! so dun go arnd bitChin bout me and my bad points!! hey face it NO ONE IS PERFECT! SO I REALLY HOPE U GET IT THIS TIME!!

Posted by BabyYaya at 11:34 PM



ANNYEONGHASEYO! hehe! ok so here i m again~ hmm~ well i hv to say that i m havin a good day tdy apart from the fact that i actually totally completely forgot about my LAUNDRY! haha! well its SUN and every SUN is my one and only off day from work AND its also called my LAUNDRY DAY~ coz this is the only day that i 'd have time to do LAUNDRY~ and usually i will start doin it in the mornin or so~ but tdy! tdy i totally forgot bout it coz i was like chattin with AKID(not ur fault)in MSN since mornin. I guess i woke up at abt 9++am and straight away i check my hp(habit) and saw that i hv 1 new sms it was frm AKID!!! it says " U..! gd mawnin! " and that really put a big smile on my face(still hv last nite make up on with smudge eyeliner) i mean its like its just a nice feelin wakin up on SUN mornin and receivin a gd mornin msg from the person that u r close/love/attch to~ agreed?? hahas anyways~ yea i m waitin for the washin machine to stop den i can go and hang my laundries..hmm just got off the phone with akid~ he's havin flu tdy~ and its really affectin his mood so after he took his med i told him to go hv a light nap~ hope he will feel much better when he wakes up later~ u know~ its true wat they say when u r havin fun time flies really fast~ SIGH its CRAPPY DAY agn tomorrow~ but i just hope that it wont be so crappy somehow~ its just tiring hving to go thru a bad day everyday~ just wish that everyday is like tdy~ happy,smillin,laughin~ hmm but wish dun always comes true? OOPS!! THERES GOES MY WASHIN MACHINE! GTG NOW! c ya when i c ya! YAYA OUTZ! and oh this r sme pics that i took when i woke up this mornin! and akid says i look like a baby??more like a babi ok! AKID GO FOR EYES CHECKUP PLS!!

Posted by BabyYaya at 11:33 PM

FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! I M SO FUCKUP!! I FUCKIN HATE MYSELF NOW!! FUCK!! y? y must i be the 1 to make his day mre worse when its bad enuf to begin with~?? GOD!now i really feel like i m the most screwed up person in this planet!! i just cant confront myself right now~ its really been a bad day for me tdy~ i had flu since mornin~ and dunno y i just felt so lonely~ and for the first time i was so desperate for someones attention~ well~ i m sure u know what i mean right? the kind of feelin like u just so desperate to be love,pampered etc by smeone u love~ but the thing thats so frustratin is when u get this desperation out of nowhere and when u dun even hv that "someone u love"!! well~ ya i m still single~ believe it or not its up to u~ and reason being y i m still single is coz i ve went thru so much shyts in my previous relationships and now to be honest i m really scared to be in one~ havin said so i do sumtimes miss the feelin of being in love.. but well i guess relationships not for me right now? idk~ i m havin mix feelings right now~ exp:u got so many foods in front of u and its givin u the temptations but at the same time u r scared to eat it coz u worry u might gain wt~ so thats hw i feel bout hving a relationship nw~ SIGH i hate this kind of mix feelins!! makes me sick!! akid~ yaya m so sorry if i ve made ur bad day to bcme worse~ i shud hve knwn that ur day was alrdy bad enuf and i shudnt hv made it worse... pls pls pls forgive yaya~ and really i swear i hv no intentions to end our friendship at all!! i was being a total shyt the whole day tdy ok n i m just so sorry bout it~ u can punish me in every way~ just dun let me leave us? i promise i wont do it agn? SIGH eventhough i know u hv forgiven me i still feel so bad~ i just cant stop cryin~ i guess this is my way of punishin myself for makin u worried,sad,etc.i just think that maybbe i dun deserve anyone at all~i dun deserve a fren,lover just deserve no one! GOD PLSS TAKE AWAY THIS FEELINS FROM ME~PLSS~ (i m lost for words)

Posted by BabyYaya at 11:33 PM


HEY TO ALL MY FANS(stop it k!) sorry i didnt post yesterday..was too tired to do so~ lol! no la jokin k..why wud i hv a fan? like DUH! so..where do i start now~ okies so yesterday wasnt in da mood coz (1)i was freakin LATE for work!! (2)my boss raised his voice at me!! (3) when i reach hm there was NOTHIN to eat!! (4) my mum came back hm with her BF(boy fren!!) ok there u go 4 things that totally CRAPPED UP my day yesterday! ok for no. 1 i felt bad~ i really mean it k i felt really bad for being late to work~ coz normally i m like the 1st one to be in office~ but yesterday i felt like i m the last to arrive!! shyt! hate it! for no. 2 well i really felt so unappreciated!! coz like i say i m usually the 1st one to arrive in office and only yesterday i was like so late so y cnt he just like close 1 eye or atleast have the courtesy to ask me nicely!!!! just coz i was late for 1 time?? well let me see how bout the rest of the days/weeks/mnths that i ve been early?? do i even get paid mre for cming early?? NO!! hv he cme to me and say "yaya u r such a gd employee" NO!! sigh! i guess i m just in my own world~ expecting something that will nvr happen~ that is to be appreciated! yeah its human nature i guess~ easier to discriminate than to appreciate~ well after all he's THE BOSS!(whateva!!) for no.3 hmm..k i m not trying to be like a spoiled brat that would just blow up coz when she reach hm frm work theres nothin to eat ok! but the thing is that..ok i hvnt eaten anything at all the whole day and thought that when i reach hm i will get something to eat..even if theres no dishes i mean atleast standby for me a plain rice or smethin so i can go and fry egg or nuggets etc. and in less than 10mins i can fill up my stomach and be happy! the funny thing is that when i rch hm yesterday theres some dishes that my mum cooked but~~~~~!!!! there wasnt any RICE!!! OMG!! i was like WTF!! so when i made noise my bro says "mama g li mkn la~" again i go WTF!! i just dun get what shes trying to do~ but anyways i m just too tired to go on bout this~ its just gonna make me pissed off again! for no.4 ok so after i had my shower~ i thought i could like relax and do my stuff la~ but then~~~ when i came out frm the shower(with only my towel) my mum was back from wherever she was~ and the next thing i know her BF(BOY FREN) is there too!!(in the house) i HATE HIM! HATE HATE HATE HIM! y? oh coz when he's around i hv to be like all "conservative"!! i cnt wear wat i feel comfortable in!(short dress,sleeveles,shorts,low cuts) coz if i do my mum will be like showin me her ATTITUDE! she has this jealousy issue between me and her bf coz he's like only 29yrs old u see..while shes 40++.... BUT! pls horh!! i m soooo not interested lorh!!! FREAK! so..yesterday when i saw him in the house i started to act like a problematic child! lmao! i just throw things here and there,banging everything near me,give them the stuck up face!! i really couldnt control myself la..hahas! hey~ its not fun to show ppl ur ATTITUDE k~ it sux k..but~ smetimes just hv to~ and i felt bad to my mama after that but i just remain silent..I M SORRY MAMA~ IF I HURT UR FEELINGS YESTERDAY BY REACTING THAT WAY~ REALLY AM SORRY~(sobs) hmm~ so that was my day yesterday~ for today nothin much to talk bout~ i m just slackin at werk~ did some spring cleaning in the office~ guess thats about it for tdy~ hey btw i wanna say THANK U to my dearie fren (u know who u r) for giving me a wake up call this mornin~ i really appreciate it LOADS!! <333333>

Posted by BabyYaya at 11:33 PM


OLA!!! hey guess wat? i m not werkin tdy..hahas dun wanna talk bout that! ok so heres the real deal...i m now still in shocked! well yesterday i called my cuzzy for a chit chat session.. hahas! den while were talkin all of the sudden he made a confession to me that he actually...oh god i feel gross to say this but..he actually told me that he..erm..he tried RUBBER DICK ON HIMSELF!! OMG!! LMAO!! i m speechless! ok fine lets not go further abt that coz i really wanna vomit talkin bout it! hmm..one of my gf ask me out for sheesha tdy but i guess tdy i m just stayin hm..dun feel like goin out..soo lazy to go out lahs..and actually i m now confuse~ hv u ever felt like u dun wanna be too close with smeone that u luv or u get along with well coz u dun wanna actually make him or her sick and tired of ur presence? thts wat i m confuse abt here~ i just dunno how to go abt this~ shud i just like stay away frm them for smetime or should i be close to them? and the thing is~ if i stay away they will like say i m stuck up la this la that la~ u knw all the negative remarks~ but den if i m close to them,i smetimes feel like they r sick n tired of my presence..so wat exactly shud i do??! and wat exactly do they want me to do??! SIGH~ hmm k lahs i really dun hve the mood to write anymre tdy..sorry..BTW heres the new update of my new CRAPPY hair!! c ya when i c ya! YAYA OUTZ!

Posted by BabyYaya at 11:32 PM

Ok..i guess every1 knows wat day is tdy..well for those who doesnt~ its the MONDAY BLUES DAY!! hahas but seriously i m hving the worse mon blues ever..i also call it MY CRAPPY DAY! well i guess the only person that is responsible for this is none other than ME MYSELF AND I!! why? oh~ cause i didnt sleep last night!(again) alryte~ its my bad~ but u know..i lose track of the time as i was too bz surfing online..and when i finally got track of the time it was alrdy like 5++am!and knowin myself,i wont be able to wake up on time for work if i were to sleep at 5++am!god! so i just stay awake til its finally time for me to get my arse up n get rdy for werk. WHAT?!oh! u thought that wasnt bad enuf?? ok cool cause i ve got greater deal cming up! *CONTINUE* so~ as i was in the bus(wishin every sec that i had a car)standin just starin out the glass panel,mindin my own biznez~ and oh! i was listenin to 89.7fm six ten mornin show! they are hilarious! but of cause i control myself from laughing~ like DUH! then all of the sudden i just got this callin frm my sixth sense that eyes were lookin at me! and i really2 HATE THAT! OK u think i m just being paranoid??! well i m 100% sure i wasnt!! knw y? coz when i looked up i caught 1 mly auntie lookin at me like i m 1 kind of ALIEN!ok so i began to feel awkward n i didnt know what to do! so i thought of that 1 person that came into my mind at that very moment~ my dearie fren(u know who u r)and waste no time to gv him a call! and luckily he answered my call~ PHEWWHH!only GOD knows hw glad i m when he answered my call! so i actually got him to talk to me for the rest of the journey til i reach my destination~ that was so swit of u~ thank u~ (btw while talkin to u, ppl was still lookin at me!even the ones outside the bus!just dunno y!) ok so when i reach my office,everything was fine til my BOSS ask me to call up one of the buyer to coordinate sme viewings for tonight~ ok lets name him MR A! so i proceed to call MR A to get mre info frm him pertaining to the hse hes lookin for..so the conversation strts like this "hi MR A i m yaya frm E#* and I m (my boss name) partner" his reply was "ok yaya wat is ur name?" wat the freak!!so keepin my cool i repeat agn the same thing and he ask agn the same thing!!! and the fourth time he ask me in a irritated angry voice!! so i told him " I SAID MY NAME IS Y A Y A(spelled it out for him)YAYA" then finally he got my name!! FREAK! his reply " oh yaya~ u sound so young i thought u got a wrong no. just now..(chuckle)ohk so u really got a sweet voice etc." and he just couldnt stop callin me DARLIN,SYG etc. !!! GOD! luckily i hvnt ate my breakfast and lunh if i had, i would hv probably throw up!!! cheesy old man!! first u were like so irritated and actually raise ur voice at me and the nxt thing u knw, hes all over me!!! I HATE GUYS LIKE HIM!!! and to u guys out there plsssssss treat a lady with RESPECT! cause just like u.. we DESERVE A RESPECT TOO! and DONT EVER2 TAKE OUR WEAKEST POINTS AS AN ADVANTAGE FOR U!!! ok..i tink this is enuf for tdy..i got no energy to go on any further~ my eyes is like half open now.. so c ya when i c ya! YAYA OUTZ~

Posted by BabyYaya at 11:32 PM


hmmm..ok tdy is my off day and i m sooo excited coz later on SOMEONE(u knw who u r) will be singing for me a song!EXCLUSIVE! WAHAHAHA! well apart from that..i goin to the saloon later on to colour my hair..oh! wat colour? hahas BLACK! coz now the colour of my hair is like suppose to be red but its faded..and it makes me look SOoo masai!its like watever i wear doesnt look gd coz of my faded hair colour..it sux u knw..every mownink i'll be like spendin 1hr ++ just to look for smething to wear tht will go well with my faded hair colour!! CRAP!TELL ME ABT IT!ok enuf with the hair colour shyt..movin on to erm..ok last nyte i slept @ 6++am hehe..coz i was chattin in msn.. crazy? maybe..but i had a great time chattin wif my new fren(u knw who u r) and i just wanna thank him so much for being my listening ear..i really2 appreciate it ok..and i m really sorry that u hv to see me in my emotional state..and also thnks for ur advise but watever it is i m stickin to my decision and that is...TO BE SINGLE NOW AND FOREVER! hehe.. oops! k i really gtg now(to the saloon) c ya when i c ya~! YAYA OUTZ!

Posted by BabyYaya at 11:31 PM

right now i m suppose to be gettin rdy for work but instead i m still infront of my laptop sobbing uncontrollably..the words he said just hurt me so much..i pretended to be strong but only god knows how shattered i was..during the times when i love him so much and thought he was my everything,he on the other hand treated me like a piece of soiled cloth..but now when i m gettin on with life only did he tell me to just be who i m and be happy of what i m right now..he who cant accpt me for who i m..is now telling me to just be who i am and be happy bout it..what should my reactions be like? should i cry or should i laugh?? well i did both..i laugh than i cry...i laugh cause..i m happy that he finally can accpt me fr who i m now..but..i cry later on thinking..why is it only now when my heart is totally close? wouldnt it had been great if...........(i' m lost for words.)

Posted by BabyYaya at 11:31 PM