Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Ok~ i hvnt been updatin my blog frm last weekend~
as i was just too lazy to do so! hahas!
so heres a quick update on waT i ve been up to since last Sunday!

Sun 24/01/10
dar dar was supposed to mit me in the morn but he got a last min plan with his family~
so i told him to come & mit me in the aftrnoon about 1pm~
so yea~ when he was about to make his way to my plc~ my aunt called me askin if i wanna go to east coast with her and my cousins~ she said to ask dar dar along so i made a conference call with dar and aunt and all agreed! so there u go LAST MIN PLAN AGAIN! hahas!
we had fun at east coast that day! I even got to mit fatyn my cousins bestie and also rifka(the other cousin's gf) the BIATCH OF THE CENTURY! but y'noe when u r havin fun time flies REALLY fast!
by 6pm my uncle drove us bck to my plc~
dar and i went to the nearby hawker centre to have our dinner~
after dinner went up to my plc~ dar dar got ready to go bck to camp and partin with dar is the moment i dread the most~!!! BUT WELL~! I HV TO ENDURE~!!

Mon 25/01/10

YAY~!! i m office~! not on MC~! HAHAS!
well if u ve been readin and if u noticed i m on MC's MOSTLY on Mondays! hehehehe!
so it kinda feels good to be in office on monday! atleast my boss wont find fault with me for not comin on Mondays~! cause i m in office on Monday! hahas! BOO to u my boss!! oops! okk stop it with the monday thingy!! so yea nothin happen much on monday so lets move on to tues~!!

Tues 26/01/10

Ok so on tues is the worst day of my life ever~!! i didnt realize that i was on menses til i reached office! and to make it worse! i didnt have any pads with me at all~!! so i had to use toilet rolls as my pad!! YUCKS! the next thing that happen really made me cry my hearts out!!ok so last fri or sat my finger nail chipped off til half of the flesh part~! it hurts like hell!! but since i was so paranoid~ i just left it as it is~ so it was fine until on tues morn when i woke up my injured finger nail was full of blood and it hurts like crazy~!! so painful that i cried like a baby~!! and at nyte when i reach hm from work~ all of the sudden my left arm hurts like crazy~! i cnt even move it at first! but after awhile i manage to move it a lil~ but just a LIL~! i cnt lift it up~! idk y! i think somethings wrong with the vein! i was whinin like a spoilt brat when talkin otp with dar dar~! heheh sowie dar dar~ ily!
k luh peeps i think tts all for now~ i m so tired now and my arms and finger still hurts~
ADIOS AMIGOS!

Posted by BabyYaya at 5:01 PM

HAPPY 1 MONTH-SARY DAR DAR~!~!!
i wish u are here with me now but unfortunately u r in camp~ anyways~
hahas feels like we ve known ech other forever~ but yea~
theres still a long long long way for us i guess~
theres still alot of rm for improvements in our RL~
and come what may~ i m sure we'll stand strong by each other ryte dar?
hahas
and ive yet to meet ur parents session~!
NERVOUS~!
so yea~ i hope we'll last forever!
cause i want nobody nobody but u! i want nobody nobody but u!
EHK! sorry sorry~ hahas!
yea cause i nvr wannabe with no one else but u k dar dar~
(Y)(Y)Y(Y) ILY (Y)(Y)(Y)

Posted by BabyYaya at 11:01 AM

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Hmm~ its SUNDAY~
suppose to meet dar dar by now but last min changes made by both side~
well~ there goes my plan~ T_T
was planning to go br8fast with dar dar but he told me his FAM ask him to go
br8fast with them~
but i m ok with that~ i understand~of cause family comes first for most of us ryte?
but at the same time its gd also~ so i can have time to do my things~
i just hate to do things in a rush~
turn out to be a big mess if i do things that way~!
CLUMSY
is my middle name~!
LMAO!
k luhs i m so hungry now~! i want to go find something to eat~!!

Posted by BabyYaya at 10:24 AM

Friday, January 22, 2010

YAY~!~! FINALLY its SATURDAY tmrw~!~!~!
i hvnt been updating since last weekend cause i wasnt in e mood~
wasnt feelin well~ and infact i m still not feelin well yet~ i m feelin miserable now~
havin ulcer on my lips and under my tounge~ it really sux!!
and lately i m havin mood swings~ and my poor dar dar bcame my victim~
I AM SORRY DAR DAR~
hehe but he didnt even complain bout it
SIGH
i m havin bad times at werk~ my boss hve been givin me a hard time~ lately~
sometimes i just feel like givin up and just quit~
but unfortunately things is not as simple as it seems~
guess i have to learn to be more tolerance and humble~
BUT ANYWAYS~
i m not gonna let any of this affect me this weekend~!
i just wanna spend all the time i have this weekend with my dar dar~!
WOOOHOOO~!
ok thats all for now i have to go now~!
i need to go chiong in AUDI to tag exp for dar dars acc~!
JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!!
LVL 6 can couple lerh~!

Posted by BabyYaya at 9:24 PM

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

I M MISSIN HIM~ SO MUCH~

Posted by BabyYaya at 5:45 PM

Friday, January 15, 2010

PARANOIA

OMG! OMG! OMG!

I M SO SCARED! DAMN SCARED! FREAKIN SCARED!

this morn i was standin in front of the mirror in the toilet after my shower~

AND! AND!

i realise that something doesnt look right with me~

i wasnt sure what was it at first~

so i kept searching thru my body~

AND THERE IT WAS~!

i spotted a bruise on my right boob~!

it looks bad~

but didnt really bother me until few mins ago

i went to the ladies to check on the bruise~

hopin it had vanish~

BUT!

its still there! and when i look at it carefully~

it seems worse then when i saw it this morn~!!

WHATEVER "IT" is~ i just want it to go away~!!!

i told dar dar about it and he wants to bring me to poly this SUNDAY

when we meet but i dont want to~!!

i dont even wanna know anythin about it!

i just want it to vanish A.S.A.P!!!

I AM SCARED~ SO SCARED~ WHAT IF~


this is how bad the bruise is~ its not that
clear though~ SIGH~ I M SO SCARED~

Posted by BabyYaya at 3:37 PM

OMG i just cant believe tt we'd even hv a big argument on a minor issue tt to me doesnt really matter coz i know tt at the end of the day i hv him and tt i still belong to him~ no matter who i go out with~

i know tt part of it was my fault coz i alrdy made a promise to sty away from my friend
coz smehow at first i hv doubts againts her due to the fact tt "she" by coincidence knows my ex bf that was somehow stalkin me~

but later on~ when i think back~
its not her tt i should be aware of~
and even IF she's in cahoot with my ex~
so what?? i dun care!! and i m not afraid!!
coz i know tt i hve him~

i m not afraid of anyhin now coz i hv him~
but y cnt he see tt?
and y must he think tt just because i confide her when i hv probs~
tt makes him unimportant to me?

he have always been important to me~
and will always be important to me~
coz i have no one else~
i have only him~
and since he thinks by me contactin my fren
is a threaten to him~
ok i will not contact her anymore~
i just want us to be happy~
i just somehow wished u understand how i think and how i feel~
about us~ coz if u do~ all this issues wont even exist~

I LOVE U DAR DAR~ I'VE ALWAYS DO~ U R THE ONLY ONE I HAVE NOW~

Posted by BabyYaya at 10:14 AM

Thursday, January 14, 2010

I m back to work tdy~
BUT as usual i m slackin~
hey! its not like i want to ok!
just that theres not much to do in the office lorh~!
well things between me and dar dar gettin better~
we sorted things out this morn~
well~ even though we wont get to meet or talk otp as often as before~
we still can sms ryte? hahas!
so i'll just be lookin forward to all the sundays now~
and!and! know wat?
this morn otw to werk i was listenin to RIA 89.7fm and they kinda open a topic bout
mak andam and kawen2 la~
den i straight away like berangan in the bus la sey~!
lmao!
k lahs i dunno wat else to tell so i'll update some other day~!

DAR DAR I MISS U ALWAYS~ (Y)(Y)(Y)

Posted by BabyYaya at 10:58 AM

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

ROTTIN~!




Today is already wed~ its been 3days i MC=ABSENT frm work~ sigh~ i just dun know y this stupoid fever just wont go away~ i HATE fever~ and now i m just at hm~ feelin like a rotten veg~! i hope i'll recover by tonyte so i can go to work tomorrow~

today is also the first day dar dar starts stayin in camp~
and i m alrdy missin him~ from tdy onwards i hv to get use to havin less time talkin/ sms/msn/seeing him~ from tdy onwards for 3 whole mths i'll only get to meet him on sundays~ coz from mon-sat(aftnn) he HAVE TO be in camp for his STUPOID drivin course~!and of coz apart frm me he still hv his family~ so we decided that since i hv to work on saturdays(cant help it!) he'll sty hm and spend the day with his family & sundays will be FOR ME ONLY! hahas! OH GOD~! pls gv me all the strenght i need to go thru this hard times~! I LOVE MY DAR DAR SOOO MUCH~!!
PLS DUN LET ANYTHING COME IN BETWEEN US~!




Hahas! these are some pics that dar dar camwhored for me last nyte
he hates to camwhore but i made him do it for me last nyte!
HEY dar dar~! know wat i tink of it??? MACHO+CUTE= IRRESISTABLE!! GRRRRR~!!


Posted by BabyYaya at 9:36 AM

Monday, January 11, 2010

THE OUTIN











BOO!! hahas! i m on MC agn tdy!


i ve been wanting to post my blog since yest but was too tired to do so~
hvnt been feelin too gd this few days~ been havin flu nearly everyday~ bad headaches~ sigh not sure wats wrong with me~ lack of vitamins i guess~ oh! btw~!despite all the sickness.. i really had a great weekend with dar dar~ we decided to spend our weekend together at east coast~
went there after work on SAT nyte~ til the next morn ~

I really wanna thank dar dar for really takin the time to prepare for the outin as i had to work on SAT and didnt have time to prepare anything~and dar dar even ask his IBU to cook us chicken rice~ and dar dar pls tell ur IBU if one day she decides not to work anymore~ tell her shes qualified to open a chicken rice stall~! cause her chicken rice really nice la sey~! YUM YUM YUM!

HAHAS!! its also the first time i let dar dar see me sleep~! and damn i snored~! well~ i cant help it my nose was blocked as i was havin flu~ *shy* sowie dar dar u had to see that ugly side of me~! hmm and in the mornin ~ when i woke up~ i was so happy knowin dar dar is beside me~ guess thats the happiest SUN mornin i ve ever woke up to~!

SIGH i just wish that day hadnt end~
dar dar~ i m really hopin that i'll really be strong enuf to go thru 3mnths
without u by my side~ and i cant lie that my lifes gonnabe miserable but i'll try to smile for u k dar dar~ and dar dar pls dun worry bout bby too much k~ i promise that i will take care of myself while u r away~ i wont do anythin that'll make u worried k~ pls dar dar have faith in me k~ ily only you~ no one else~



PS: the pics on top is me & dar dar at the beach~ just randoms pics~
the ones on the bottom is the pics of me with the gifts dar dar gave me during the weekend~ thnk u dar dar for the gifts~ ILY~ MUACKS~!




Posted by BabyYaya at 9:33 AM

Thursday, January 7, 2010




Your Relationship is Still Building Strength



You're relationship is fairly strong, but you're still working on making things solid.

Make sure you're both treating each other with kindness and respect, even when things aren't going well.



Your relationship isn't in danger, but it could be if a crisis hits. You need more strength to get through the bad times.

Remember what attracted you to each other, and try to bring some of that fire back. It's not too late!

How Strong is Your Relationship?

Blogthings: Take a Quiz. Annoy Your Friends.

Posted by BabyYaya at 2:12 PM

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

REGRETS~




It seems to be an unexplainable whirlpool of emotions:
Happy--but wanting to cry myself to sleep
Guilty-- but feeling like I did the right thing
Regretting--but knowing it had to be done
Crying-- but wanting so hard to be happy
Smiling--because they fell for the fake happiness
Caring-- because if not everything would be lost
and...
Trusting-- Even when all flaws tell me not to

Mistakes are part of life, everyone makes them, everyone regrets them. But, some learn from them and some end up making them again. It's up to you to decide if you'll use your mistakes to your advantage

Never regret anything because at one time it was what you wanted

Every day we make choices, and every night we must sleep with the consequences of those choices

I hate the fact that I can never hate you and the fact that I'll always love you no matter what you put me through.

Posted by BabyYaya at 12:15 PM

FoRgIvInG~ FoRgIvEnEsS~ FoRgIvEn~


Forgive sounds good
Forget Im not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But Im still waitin

I've learnt not to hold things back because there comes a point when you can't hold them back anymore and all you feel like doing is breaking down.

Holding anger is a poison. It eats you from inside. We think that hatred is the weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. But hatred is a curved blade. And the harm we do, we do to ourselves.

Forgiveness to me doesnt mean accepting someones apologies , It means understanding fully that A person made mistakes but is worthy of a second chance .

"I know you never meant to do everything you put me through
It's okay I forgive you
Just know that when you see me cringe sometimes
I'm trying to rid the **poison** from my mind"

you know~ underneath the mascara and the nice smile, every girl has a something inside called heart: it is wrapped, believe me, with stickers saying FRAGILE and HANDLE WITH CARE~

Posted by BabyYaya at 11:21 AM

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

CRAVIN OF E DAY!





I M SOoooo CRAVING FOR THIS~!~!~!

Posted by BabyYaya at 11:21 AM

Monday, January 4, 2010

SHOCKED

" i m sorry b..its nt a gd news n it'll rili affect us..
startin from next wednesday..
i'll only book out on every sat 12pm n go back to camp on sunday night..
until i finish my drivin course which is ard MARCH 13TH
tu pon kalau i pass cepat b..
kalau tak i kene extend..
i'll work hard for us b..
i'll pass my drivin course fast..
so i can meet u every thurs n weekend when i get back to my camp.."
(this is the sms i receive frm him tdy 04/01/2010 @ 12:24pm)

" Its ok la dar~ everythings gonnabe ok yea~ =) " (this was my first reply to him.. obviously i was lyin to myself & to him.. because it wasnt ok.. i was cryin like someone who just lost all directions in life.. only god knows how i felt..how much i want him to be by my side right now..)

" Omg dar dar! who am i kiddin?
No! no its not ok!
How is it ok when i just broke down and cry
like someone who just lost all directions in life when i receive ur sms.." (this is my 2nd reply a few mins after i send the 1st one..i didnt want him to worry bout me at first..but afterall i think he needs to know how i REALLY felt..i want him to know that its not ok to be away from him for so long..i want him to know how miserable i'll feel without him by my side..cause..i love him..so much.. i just cant imagine life without him..)

DAR DAR..
no matter wat happens i'll stay strong with u..
i'll wait for u no matter how long it takes..
as long as i know at the end of everything..
u r mine & i m urs..
we'll be together..always.. I LOVE YOU..



Posted by BabyYaya at 12:52 PM

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Kid: -+I love my Baby+- : says:
ilyt baby...make me only yours..cuz i've made u only mine...
and i'm for no one else too...
only yours...(03/01/2010)

Posted by BabyYaya at 11:02 PM


THIS IS FOR U DAR DAR! :P
bby hope it'll lessen that cravings of urs!
MUAHAHAHAHA!! MUACKKKKS!!

Posted by BabyYaya at 1:34 PM

AAARGH!!!!!!!!!!

can someone just come to me and
punch me in the face!!
or kick me hard on my head!!
or slap me hard!!
or just stab me everywhere with a knife!!
cause i REALLY hate myself ryte now!!!

Posted by BabyYaya at 10:42 AM

Saturday, January 2, 2010




Sometimes i wonder~
why do i even bother to be nice to everyone~
when at the end of the day i know that no one appreciates~
but i just refuse to give up on them~
cause~ deep inside my heart~
i still am hopin that they will learn to appreciate me~
i know somehow~ someday~ they will~ (Maybe)

Posted by BabyYaya at 5:24 PM