Sunday, April 17, 2011
Test Test !! Hahas okie so i m still alive huh?? hmm havent been updatin since..... let me see.... almost a year?? yea.. shud be almost a year since my last update... wow!! time really flies very2 fast huh..?
So.. must b wonderin wat happened and where i ve been ryte?? can i just not tell?? course i can not tell!! ekekeke!! okok.. sumtink happened.. sumtink tt really makes me open up my eyes n my senses.. i ve really learnt my lessons..really i have.. and i must admit tt it really changed my life.. i guess i m much2 happier now den before.. i ve stop livin in fear and i ve gain lots of confidence in myself..be more positive.. be more tolerance.. i ve also learnt how to cherish my life and family and friends that loves n cares for me..honestly.. i can say that for the past 7months.. i ve gove thru hell.. that i m sure i never and will not go thru again in my life.. and this is a promise i make to myself..breakin this promise means that i am betrayin myself..and the MOST unexpected HAPPENED!! gosh sumtimes i feel like i m dreamin but i m not!! guess wat?? i ve lost weight!! hahas!! ok like duh.. not a big deal huh? but it is to me!! i was like 84kg and now i m like 61kg!! AMAZING huh?? yea yea.. but really i myself was shock too..! anyways i still think i need to lose more.. my aim is ... 55kg.. still a long way to go... T_T i m strugglin to maintain my diet.. but its kinda really2 hard!! i really hope i can reach my aim by say.. early 2012?? *CROSS FINGERS* aniwaes.. i have a new job now.. no more dealin with real estates.. too stressful!! now i m werkin @ Thai Express.. F&B as usual.. hectic and tiring.. but its good though..its like an excercise for me to keep losin weight.. lots of walkin and movin around non stop.. for the first week i really couldnt take it cause it was too tiring.. had blisters on my toes.. legs got swollen.. but by the 2nd week i got used to it..and i seem to njoy werkin there..i was also blessed with WONDERFUL colleagues and manager as well.. but the sad thing is..yest was my manager last day of werk.. she resigned due to she wants to go back to her country(sabah) i was really sad when she told me that yest was her last day.. i m sooooo gonna miss her ALOT!! and now i have to face a new manager..not sure how he's gonna turn out.. i really2 hope he's ok..... *CROSS FINGERS* hmm.. really lookin forward to MAY.. hahas pay cheque+gst=SHOPPIN!! yaaaaahooooo!! alrdy plannin to go makan2 with colleagues, shoppin with frens.. and makan2 with uncles n aunties n the gangs!! REALLY LOOKIN FORWARD~~!! ALRYTE... i tink tts enough update for now.. i'll try my very best to update often..but no promises.. YaYa OuTz
Posted by BabyYaya at 2:13 AM
Friday, March 19, 2010
The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step
It's really easy to become addicted to someone when they manage to become in a short period of time everything you ever dreamed of, everything you ever needed, everything you want. You're that and more to me dear, i discover you every day and with you, i discover myself. I never knew i could miss someone so much and i am thankful i have you to miss.
you should know that I don't look at other guys I don't flirt with other guys and I don't look at other guys there is no reason to do so cause you are all that I need.. yes I will admit that and yes you are all that I want and YOU will always be enough for me I hope that you feel the same way.. Love is a wonderful feeling and its one that you have given me the pleasure of feeling.. I know that you are the only one that I could ever love and the one that
I am going to be with for the rest of my life(i hope & pray)
You are only the best thing that ever happened in my life and I plan to keep it that way forever and always!!
HAPPY 1MONTH-sary DeaR !
I LOVE U DeaR..
™JoShYaNa™
It's really easy to become addicted to someone when they manage to become in a short period of time everything you ever dreamed of, everything you ever needed, everything you want. You're that and more to me dear, i discover you every day and with you, i discover myself. I never knew i could miss someone so much and i am thankful i have you to miss.
you should know that I don't look at other guys I don't flirt with other guys and I don't look at other guys there is no reason to do so cause you are all that I need.. yes I will admit that and yes you are all that I want and YOU will always be enough for me I hope that you feel the same way.. Love is a wonderful feeling and its one that you have given me the pleasure of feeling.. I know that you are the only one that I could ever love and the one that
I am going to be with for the rest of my life(i hope & pray)
You are only the best thing that ever happened in my life and I plan to keep it that way forever and always!!
HAPPY 1MONTH-sary DeaR !
I LOVE U DeaR..
™JoShYaNa™
Posted by BabyYaya at 4:27 PM
Sunday, March 14, 2010
My Dearest Bestie & My ADDICTION*stretch*
heheh !! okok... i noe... i said i wud be updatin often/daily
but so far i ve failed to do so... *sengeh*
well...... i cant help it k.. i havent been gettin enuf sleep lately and oso i was sick...
MENSES+CRAMP+FLU+FEVER = DYING SOON!!
I HATE FALLIN SICK !! yea yea tell me about it !!
anyways... despite being sick as i was... i still went out to mit my bestie BABY aka BABY PENGUIN *laughs* fer the past few days straight...
guess i miss her loads after not contactin fer abt 1year...(due to some circumstances)
oh yea and i guess my new ADDICTION is her 4mnths old babyboy !!
he's SUPER CUTE !! and anyways just incase u guys din noe.. i LOVE babies...!! ekekeke !!
well his name is MOHD ALIF AIZUDIN aka BUCOK aka BACEN aka LIUR xD
hmmm... MAYBE one day i'll have my own baby... ekekkeke !! I LOIKE ~ !!
*STARE AT DEAR*
ekekekke !!
Hmmm...talkin bout dear...yea..i've been missin him like crazy... especially yest (sat)
wasnt sure y i was missin him XTRA yest... was waitin fer his call at 8pm as usual..
but den he din call until 9++pm...
so he told me he got stuff to do tts y he called late..
but anyways...i was just glad tt he called...
erms...oso glad to noe tt he's doin fine there and makin new frens...
so ALL THE BEST to dear.. !! i'll be waitin faithfully fer u.. *gf misali mode* xD
I m still countin down to meetin dear~ !! i Sooooo cant wait~ !!
k la... seriously i've ran out of things to type out... so i guess this is it fer now..
YAYA OUTZ~!!
Posted by BabyYaya at 10:10 PM
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
OK...ello...so here i am again..!!
i guess i m gonna update often just so that dear can roughly noe wat ive been up to daily.. *gf misali mode* LOL
aite..so i m just gonna update on wat i ve been up to the whole day yest from the moment i woke up..
Soooo..yest i woke up at about 11++am..got up and had my shower..and after that as usual la did my DAILY ROUTINE!!
so DAILY ROUTINE= SMS dear,on lappy, go on9,sign in to MSN,FaceBook,Tagged(on some mission),Youtube.
well i didnt chat much in msn though..was on AWAY state..ekekeke too lazy to chat la..
den proceed to FaceBook...nothin much oso...den followed by Tagged...but TARGET wasnt on9 so i just browse arnd...
added some gals in my Tagged just so to make it look more convincing...ekekekeke!! so yup some of them tt i added accepted... bt kesian lak ehk kat dorang ehk...ala takpew la...as long as i dun gv the gals fake hopes da kire ok la kan...LOL!
so movin on..to YouTube..just watch some lame vids..listen to a couple of lame songs and i was done !!
So...as boredom was gettin on to me...i decided to go off9 and watch tv instead...yea luckily got some funny comedy at channel5 so yea i guess it helps to lessen down the boredom percentage !! ekekeke!! so yea watched tv til about 8++pm
but honestly i kept lookin at my hp the whole time while watchin tv~!! waitin fer dears call+sms~!! and so..he called at about 8++pm...!! i was so HAPPY~!! yea talked fer less den 10mins with dear and he said he'd call me back b4 lightsoff...
honestly i was reluctant to hang up but yea..i have to understand that he's tired and all...
so yup after i hung up i on my lappy and sign in to MSN agn...followed by FaceBook..
.cnt be bothered to check my Tagged though~! ekekekeke
anyways SR was on9 in Msn so yea chatted with her abit den went ahead to let out my emotions here..
about how much i was missin dear...so at about 9++pm goin 10pm dear called agn..but half way thru our conversation he said he'll call back...so yea reluctantly agn i asid OK..and yea he called back after tt at about 10.30pm
just to say our 'LAST FEW MESSAGES' b4 his lightsoff~!! i have to admit tt i was really sad and down..but yup i hv to b strong...like how dear want me to be.. well yea he sounded cool about everything...so i thought he wasnt missin me as much as i was missin him...but den...after we hung up...dear text me and his first sentence was 'Dear i freakin miss u alot' i was soooooo happy+sad+touch=TEARS ekekeke anyways...
i replied to dears sms den proceed to FaceBook to change my status.. thts when REMY IL SILENZOO(sorry lau sala spell)
commented and followed by wanie and thnks to SR fer FLOODING my wall~!! OMG 70 comments siots!! ekekekeeke
ANYWAYS...we had fun flooding my wall la ehk ! huhu!
Then..at about 12++am AC on aired...i just went in FM din chat much as i was SELAM-ing
y i selam?? doin wat?? ekekekeke i was reading dears blog...i mean...i was readin his old post and i must say tt...tts a really stupid thing fer me to do ~!! ANYWAYS...i dun wish to elaborate more on tt ekekekeke !! dohh yaya dohh~!!
after tt... OUT of the blues toopid JAVA invt fer webby !
was shocked at first but den he just wanna show me LS=Lady Setan.. CHEY~!! tot wat...!! ekekekke !!
But webby din last long as my KONEKSYEN prangai !! SORRY JAVA & LS~!!
so yup...after tt i was out frm FM at about 4++am..as usual shutdown lappy...get ready to sleep..
but all of the sudden it started to rain~!! i was soooo happy~!! rain really makes my day~!! weeeeeeeeeeeee~!!
so i went outside my house to smoke and enjoy the rain at the same time...AND was missin dear badly....T__T
when i was done with smokin..when back in the house...when i was about to fell asleep dear text me a gd mornin msg~!!
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~!! ok so after i replied i straight away GONE..
*fuuuuhhhhhh* tt was a long update huh?? gaaaaahhhh~!! ok la my fingers are gettin tired now..so i guess tts all fer now..
i'll update agn tomorrow aites ~!!
YAYA OUTZ~!!
i guess i m gonna update often just so that dear can roughly noe wat ive been up to daily.. *gf misali mode* LOL
aite..so i m just gonna update on wat i ve been up to the whole day yest from the moment i woke up..
Soooo..yest i woke up at about 11++am..got up and had my shower..and after that as usual la did my DAILY ROUTINE!!
so DAILY ROUTINE= SMS dear,on lappy, go on9,sign in to MSN,FaceBook,Tagged(on some mission),Youtube.
well i didnt chat much in msn though..was on AWAY state..ekekeke too lazy to chat la..
den proceed to FaceBook...nothin much oso...den followed by Tagged...but TARGET wasnt on9 so i just browse arnd...
added some gals in my Tagged just so to make it look more convincing...ekekekeke!! so yup some of them tt i added accepted... bt kesian lak ehk kat dorang ehk...ala takpew la...as long as i dun gv the gals fake hopes da kire ok la kan...LOL!
so movin on..to YouTube..just watch some lame vids..listen to a couple of lame songs and i was done !!
So...as boredom was gettin on to me...i decided to go off9 and watch tv instead...yea luckily got some funny comedy at channel5 so yea i guess it helps to lessen down the boredom percentage !! ekekeke!! so yea watched tv til about 8++pm
but honestly i kept lookin at my hp the whole time while watchin tv~!! waitin fer dears call+sms~!! and so..he called at about 8++pm...!! i was so HAPPY~!! yea talked fer less den 10mins with dear and he said he'd call me back b4 lightsoff...
honestly i was reluctant to hang up but yea..i have to understand that he's tired and all...
so yup after i hung up i on my lappy and sign in to MSN agn...followed by FaceBook..
.cnt be bothered to check my Tagged though~! ekekekeke
anyways SR was on9 in Msn so yea chatted with her abit den went ahead to let out my emotions here..
about how much i was missin dear...so at about 9++pm goin 10pm dear called agn..but half way thru our conversation he said he'll call back...so yea reluctantly agn i asid OK..and yea he called back after tt at about 10.30pm
just to say our 'LAST FEW MESSAGES' b4 his lightsoff~!! i have to admit tt i was really sad and down..but yup i hv to b strong...like how dear want me to be.. well yea he sounded cool about everything...so i thought he wasnt missin me as much as i was missin him...but den...after we hung up...dear text me and his first sentence was 'Dear i freakin miss u alot' i was soooooo happy+sad+touch=TEARS ekekeke anyways...
i replied to dears sms den proceed to FaceBook to change my status.. thts when REMY IL SILENZOO(sorry lau sala spell)
commented and followed by wanie and thnks to SR fer FLOODING my wall~!! OMG 70 comments siots!! ekekekeeke
ANYWAYS...we had fun flooding my wall la ehk ! huhu!
Then..at about 12++am AC on aired...i just went in FM din chat much as i was SELAM-ing
y i selam?? doin wat?? ekekekeke i was reading dears blog...i mean...i was readin his old post and i must say tt...tts a really stupid thing fer me to do ~!! ANYWAYS...i dun wish to elaborate more on tt ekekekeke !! dohh yaya dohh~!!
after tt... OUT of the blues toopid JAVA invt fer webby !
was shocked at first but den he just wanna show me LS=Lady Setan.. CHEY~!! tot wat...!! ekekekke !!
But webby din last long as my KONEKSYEN prangai !! SORRY JAVA & LS~!!
so yup...after tt i was out frm FM at about 4++am..as usual shutdown lappy...get ready to sleep..
but all of the sudden it started to rain~!! i was soooo happy~!! rain really makes my day~!! weeeeeeeeeeeee~!!
so i went outside my house to smoke and enjoy the rain at the same time...AND was missin dear badly....T__T
when i was done with smokin..when back in the house...when i was about to fell asleep dear text me a gd mornin msg~!!
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~!! ok so after i replied i straight away GONE..
*fuuuuhhhhhh* tt was a long update huh?? gaaaaahhhh~!! ok la my fingers are gettin tired now..so i guess tts all fer now..
i'll update agn tomorrow aites ~!!
YAYA OUTZ~!!
Posted by BabyYaya at 4:26 PM
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
This is How much i Miss u...♥
Today is the first day without u here by my side..
and it really make alot of diffs without u here with me..
without u in my daily routine..
its just so quiet without u..
feels like i've just lost my the other half..
i m just missin u more than u can ever imagine..
I have missed you in a room
Where I thought the walls would fall around me
I've missed you in a city street
And felt like the pavement
I've missed you even amongst my best friends
Felt lost amongst their friendly faces
I've missed you and woken at midnight
And cried myself back to sleep.
I've missed you even when I've felt like the luckiest person alive
When everything has come my way
But you - I've missed you
When it feels like I've conquered the impossible
When I've sat alone in a corner
I've wondered over and over again
Why?
I've just missed you...
Posted by BabyYaya at 9:20 PM
Sunday, March 7, 2010
HEY HEY HEY ~!!!
erms...wait ehk... *blow dust* ekekeke
ok..now my blog is dust-less..
ok....so...i hv to admit nowadays i rarely update my blog like i use to..
reason being is coz i m lazy !! ekekeke
and alot has happened b4 and after i update my last post...
and honestly idk y it took me this long to update my blog...hmmmm...
ok.. so.. as u guys know.. i was attach to AKID aka KID aka DAR DAR...but sad to announce tt we are no longer together.. yea yea..shyts happens and even i didnt see it comin at first...
but yea..lyfe goes on ryte?? hahas !
true enuff it does go on..and now i m officially and happily attach to
JOSHY aka AJEN aka MD AZRIN aka DEAR
ekekekeke..
Ok so maybe u guys are wonderin how come i broke up wit AKID
&
how i ended up being attach to JOSHY ryte??
hmmmm... let me see.. where do i start...
when i first got to noe AKID... as in when we were just frens...we were so happy together...
and i mean really happy... he was always there fer me when i m down..
and was always there to bring laughter back to me..
but eventually one nyte he confessed to me tt he wants to be more than just a close fren to me..
honestly i was in a confuse state at tt point of time...
but somehow i said yes to him... so from there we became closer...
alot of sweet promises were made.. by me & him to ech other...
but well...i guess promises are meant to b broken and things dun always turn out how we want it to be... and sad to say tt in a relationship the truth hurts...
so yea... he broke his promise not to hurt my feelins and i broke my promise nvr to leave him..
i noe he meant well when he said i m his priority and tt he doesnt need his frens coz he knows
tt he have me ...and all he wants is me.. but i guess... tts not how it shud be...
coz i feel suffocated when i cant hv frens and the only person i can turn to is him...
i wud have understand if he doesnt want me to hv any guy frens..but even galfrens?? WTH??
wat am i a prisoner?? sigh... and when i tell him tt i dun like it tt way.. he'll say OK but smehow at the end of the conversation he'll make it sound like i m THE BAD GUY ~!!
so... rather then forcin myself to cont to be in a relationship tt i feel suffocated in.. i made my decision to leave... eventhough i hv to admit i felt hurt and guilty...but i guess tts just how it goes in a relationship... sigh..
and so... i met JOSH.. actually he's been in my previous msn(cutedvl_19@html)
list fer quite sometime but i m not sure
y we seldom or rarely chat wif ech other...guess he got too many gals to entertain at tt point of time..ekekekekeke
until recently about 1mnth++ back when i change my msn add and re added him..
we started chattin with ech other not tt quite often but better den seldom or rarely.. LOL
and from there i got active with FM and yea i guess from there we got closer and yadayadayada~
and i nvr ever tot dat we'd end up together... coz...he's much much much younger den me !!
ok so abit of INTRO bout him..
NAME: JOSH/AJEN/AZRIN(too popular tts why alot of names LOL)
AGE: 19 (this yr 2010)
i guess tts enuff fer the INTRO and yea so he's like 19 and tts like 4 yrs younger den me but hey...!! we get along quite well i must say and moreover...
i dun really look OLD and he dun really look YOUNG
LMFAO !!
and yea.... so we r together now... and i have to admit tt i m happy being with him...
we do stuff together... have fun together... so yea... i m just happy ...
i noe i cant predict how long we'll be together but if i cud.. i wud wanna be wit him forever...
aaaaawwww YAYA!! u r so sweet....!! ekekekekeke
and yea he'll be goin fer NS on 9th MARCH tt is only like 2 days away...
and i noe fer sure tt i'll be missin him like crazy ~!!
gaaaaaahhhhhhh !!!
i cnt wait to meet him 2mrw !! and after tmrw.... *tears*
hmmm... i just hope tt things will work out fer us even though we'll have lesser time together...
ok guys.. i think tts all fer now...i'll try my very best tp update as often aite!! ADIOS !!
PS: dear.. despite wat happen with me and him..
i hope u really do hv trust in me as u noe the reason y it din workout
between me and him..and dear..i'll try my very best not to betray ur trust.. I LOVE U DEAR..
erms...wait ehk... *blow dust* ekekeke
ok..now my blog is dust-less..
ok....so...i hv to admit nowadays i rarely update my blog like i use to..
reason being is coz i m lazy !! ekekeke
and alot has happened b4 and after i update my last post...
and honestly idk y it took me this long to update my blog...hmmmm...
ok.. so.. as u guys know.. i was attach to AKID aka KID aka DAR DAR...but sad to announce tt we are no longer together.. yea yea..shyts happens and even i didnt see it comin at first...
but yea..lyfe goes on ryte?? hahas !
true enuff it does go on..and now i m officially and happily attach to
JOSHY aka AJEN aka MD AZRIN aka DEAR
ekekekeke..
Ok so maybe u guys are wonderin how come i broke up wit AKID
&
how i ended up being attach to JOSHY ryte??
hmmmm... let me see.. where do i start...
when i first got to noe AKID... as in when we were just frens...we were so happy together...
and i mean really happy... he was always there fer me when i m down..
and was always there to bring laughter back to me..
but eventually one nyte he confessed to me tt he wants to be more than just a close fren to me..
honestly i was in a confuse state at tt point of time...
but somehow i said yes to him... so from there we became closer...
alot of sweet promises were made.. by me & him to ech other...
but well...i guess promises are meant to b broken and things dun always turn out how we want it to be... and sad to say tt in a relationship the truth hurts...
so yea... he broke his promise not to hurt my feelins and i broke my promise nvr to leave him..
i noe he meant well when he said i m his priority and tt he doesnt need his frens coz he knows
tt he have me ...and all he wants is me.. but i guess... tts not how it shud be...
coz i feel suffocated when i cant hv frens and the only person i can turn to is him...
i wud have understand if he doesnt want me to hv any guy frens..but even galfrens?? WTH??
wat am i a prisoner?? sigh... and when i tell him tt i dun like it tt way.. he'll say OK but smehow at the end of the conversation he'll make it sound like i m THE BAD GUY ~!!
so... rather then forcin myself to cont to be in a relationship tt i feel suffocated in.. i made my decision to leave... eventhough i hv to admit i felt hurt and guilty...but i guess tts just how it goes in a relationship... sigh..
and so... i met JOSH.. actually he's been in my previous msn(cutedvl_19@html)
list fer quite sometime but i m not sure
y we seldom or rarely chat wif ech other...guess he got too many gals to entertain at tt point of time..ekekekekeke
until recently about 1mnth++ back when i change my msn add and re added him..
we started chattin with ech other not tt quite often but better den seldom or rarely.. LOL
and from there i got active with FM and yea i guess from there we got closer and yadayadayada~
and i nvr ever tot dat we'd end up together... coz...he's much much much younger den me !!
ok so abit of INTRO bout him..
NAME: JOSH/AJEN/AZRIN(too popular tts why alot of names LOL)
AGE: 19 (this yr 2010)
i guess tts enuff fer the INTRO and yea so he's like 19 and tts like 4 yrs younger den me but hey...!! we get along quite well i must say and moreover...
i dun really look OLD and he dun really look YOUNG
LMFAO !!
and yea.... so we r together now... and i have to admit tt i m happy being with him...
we do stuff together... have fun together... so yea... i m just happy ...
i noe i cant predict how long we'll be together but if i cud.. i wud wanna be wit him forever...
aaaaawwww YAYA!! u r so sweet....!! ekekekekeke
and yea he'll be goin fer NS on 9th MARCH tt is only like 2 days away...
and i noe fer sure tt i'll be missin him like crazy ~!!
gaaaaaahhhhhhh !!!
i cnt wait to meet him 2mrw !! and after tmrw.... *tears*
hmmm... i just hope tt things will work out fer us even though we'll have lesser time together...
ok guys.. i think tts all fer now...i'll try my very best tp update as often aite!! ADIOS !!
PS: dear.. despite wat happen with me and him..
i hope u really do hv trust in me as u noe the reason y it din workout
between me and him..and dear..i'll try my very best not to betray ur trust.. I LOVE U DEAR..
Posted by BabyYaya at 10:12 PM
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
AM I AN ATTENTION SEEKER ?? ans: yes i am but only to the person that i love..DO I LOVE TO BE PAMPERED?? ans: yes i love to be pampered by the person tt i love..
Hmmm its been a long long time since i last update..ALOT had happen..
i dun even know how or where to begin.. but yea maybe i'll just begin with how i am feelin ryte now..
ryte now i feel like i m all alone..
y??
coz i m emo-ing so tts y i m alone now coz most doesnt like a person tt is emo-ing..
and mostly the peeps tt i know will say i m an attention seeker just coz i m emo-ing..
anyways...
go ahead and say wat u like coz fer wat i know i dun seek attention from others but just from the person tt i love..so yea..
and yea i m the type of person tt is very manje..
i love to be pampered by my bf..
and i m soooo manje tt if my bf were to raise his voice at me or scold me..
i'll AUTO CRY...
well i know i m startin to sound like a spoilt brat...
but yea tts the way i m and i cnt help being tt way...
but is it wrong to be tt way??
and yea if u cant or dont like the way i m...
plss do be my guess and walk away from my life..
i would rather be all alone den hav hypocrites in ma life...
and isnt it sad when u hv a bf tt dun console u when r emo-ing ...
and just say not to think too much and just move on...
SIGH...
in times like this when others turn their back on me..
i just wish u were there fer me and to really understand how i m feelin now instaed of throwin tantrums at me...
sometimes.. when i say its ok it doesnt really mean i m ok..
sometimes when i say u dun have to..doesnt mean u really dun have to..
sigh sometimes i wonder..why am i always there when someone needs me
when yet they r not here when i need them...